Well Shit

May. 24th, 2013 09:09 am
aderam: (Daniel Headdesk)
"If you don't know where you're going, any road will take you there." - Lewis Carroll

I checked in with the archaeology job again. Apparently they still haven't finalized things with their clients up north, which means that they still don't know if they can hire additional people for the field season. My contact seemed frustrated by this - but not frustrated at me. She again encouraged me to keep in touch.

But things are too close to the wire. I'll be homeless on the 31st. I can't stay here.

So I've bought my plane ticket to Newfoundland. I'll be heading that way on the 30th.

In theory I know that this hasn't changed my situation at all. I could still get this job and head to Calgary and actually get to use my degree for once. If everything turns out well than this will just be a visit with my brother that I really need.

But it's really hard not to feel discouraged.

Plus, I'm in the midst of packing and moving. It's hard not to feel discouraged at this point. On the one hand: Why do I have so much stuff? On the other hand: All my worldly possessions fit into roughly 17 boxes/bags (including the duffles I'm taking on the plane).
aderam: (Hat)
Hey all. It's May. Which means it's getting close to decision time.

I still haven't heard from anyone official at the archaeology firm yet, but M says that things are starting up and they'll be needing new hires soon. I'll send a polite email sometime around Monday if I haven't heard anything by then.

Still trying to feel optimistic, but I'm going to have to start making plans to move into my brother's basement soon whether I hear back or not.

I've given notice at work. So May 14th is going to be my last day.

I've started organizing books, and yarn, and clothes. And I'm getting boxes together to send to long term storage in my Mother's basement (despite having just cleared everything out of there this past summer).

And I should have gotten more accomplished today, but instead I finished reading The Silvered by Tanya Huff because I just couldn't put it down. Werewolves and mages and badass womenfolk and an Empire like the Romans in a time period more similar to the Napoleonic wars. It was awesome. Highly recommend. But that's not exactly surprising since it's Tanya Huff.

Anyway. Life is hard right now. But I'm working through it. And hopefully I'll hear something good really soon. If not I'll be heading east toward family. Which is also good.

And in the meantime we're getting Iron Man 3 at my work and we're probably going to have a staff screening either tonight or tomorrow morning. So I'm finally going to get the chance to see a new movie before everyone else! Perks of the job. :)
aderam: (Smiley Allison)

They're still in the process of hiring people, but they'll give me a call in a couple of weeks to confirm (or deny).

I may start as early as April! Depending on contracts with clients going through and the weather and other weird logistical things.

She sounded really nice!

She was mostly talking about working up North, which I think is where I'd want to go anyway!

She also mentioned that because I have a Masters degree that it's possible that I could stay on with them and be trained for becoming a permit holder! (In order to dig in Alberta each team has to be led by someone who has a permit to do archaeology in the province, each province has different regulations about who can hold a permit. It's like my brother needing his mate's ticket in order to work as a mate on the boats.)

Continue thinking good thoughts please! I really want this job!


Mar. 5th, 2013 04:11 pm
aderam: (Feed Scotty)
I have a phone interview with an(other) archaeology firm tomorrow. (!!!) I have already quizzed M (who works there) about what I should be saying and what I should expect (both from the interview and the type of work they do). I'm optimistically terrified. So think good thoughts for me tomorrow afternoon (PST)!

Some other thoughts to keep myself from brooding:

- I don't like the latest update of iTunes. The reason I started using iTunes was that I found it really intuitive, and the way they changed things around this update has ballsed it up (IMO). So I thinking about switching over to using Zune more, since I have to use it for my phone too. But figuring out new software is annoying. And I do still have an iPod. Blagh.

- I need a book to bring with me to work. I want to read Tanya Huff's The Silvered because I got it for Christmas and haven't started it yet. But I don't want it to get any butter on it. Because it is a nice book and a massive hardcover. I wish it was out in paperback so I could just grab a cheap copy. Bah.

Also, picking books for reading at work is hard because it has to be something I actually want to read, but also something that I don't feel weird reading in front of co-workers. - This might be lingering issues from that awful summer job I had where my coworkers were rude and bullied me about reading Stranger in a Strange Land because it was an old '70s SciFi cover so it looked really wacky.

- I went to yoga yesterday for the first time in a while. And it felt really good, although my muscles know I was working them today. I was sure that I would need to spend most of the class in child's pose (resting), but turns out that I'm not in as bad shape as I thought I was. I have been playing hockey though, and it's interesting that I can feel which muscles are hockey muscles because those poses are much easier for me than even some of the "easier" poses that don't use hockey muscles.

- I really want to do more writing, but I'm terrible without deadlines. I've figured out that I need to finish my Teen Wolf fic before Season 3 starts in June because it's a pre-series story and I know from spoilers that they're doing a flashback episode. I'm torn between being super excited to see the canon Hale family and a little sad that they aren't going to be the same as the Hale family that's been hanging out in my head for the past few months.

And the other day I picked up a Star Trek XI fic I started years ago and wrote a couple of scenes because they were just in my head. I have no idea why since, while I'm excited for the new movie, I haven't been reading any fic or even watching any of the other Treks. Whatever, as long as I'm writing I don't really care.
aderam: (Aeryn)

I just can't. What they do to me! The characters! The acknowledging of past hurts. The men crying because things are too much and they are still tough as nails! Spike! Jules being tiny and badass! Ed! GREG!


Why does that have to be the end?
aderam: (Daniel Headdesk)
Had my phone interview with the archaeology firm. They seemed really nice and I think that overall it went well. Except that I don't have a driver's license and that might be a problem - which I sort of knew going into it, especially working in rural areas. But at least the interviewer gave me a chance to explain why I haven't gotten my license yet (and commented that although she drove standard now she couldn't imagine having to learn on one - which is the main reason I didn't actually learn in High School: no one teaches on standard where I'm from, and naturally my parents drive standard). [personal profile] hobbitbabe pointed out that it meant the interviewer was on my side, and I hope that's the case.

Man, it's never more apparent to me how many non-verbal cues I follow in social situations until I don't have access to them. I think that the interview went well - but I definitely hate phone interviews.

Also I probably won't hear anything until January because they weren't able to get interviews for some people until after Christmas.

So I'm watching H50 and eating curly fries and knitting until I have to go to work tonight.

Job interviews suck.


Dec. 5th, 2012 02:35 pm
aderam: (Smiley Allison)
Holy Shit guys! I've got a phone interview with an archaeology firm on Tuesday! They're hiring field archaeologists and their season starts up at the end of January!

Think good thoughts for me please!
aderam: (Horizon)
The HMS Bounty has sunk off Cape Hatteras in North Carolina during Hurricane Sandy. Fourteen of the crew have been rescued, but apparently two are still missing, including Captain Robin and a woman I don't know.

I sailed on the Bounty for about a month the summer after I graduated from high school. She wasn't exactly a good ship - she was leaky and poorly organized - but she was my home for that time and I have fond memories (even while shaking my head in retrospect). As far as I can tell most of the people from my time - except Robin - weren't on board anymore and are safe. I'm not sure if I knew anyone else who was there, though because in general I've been terrible at keeping in touch. But being on the Bounty was an important time in my life. It's (indirectly) the reason I know [personal profile] denisia since her friend R was a shipmate of mine and we stayed at her place in New York after I got off the boat. And I learned a lot while I was there.

My brother called me this morning at 7am to let me know what had happened. And I'm glad I heard it from him first, since he was the one who got me on board in the first place, and we could reminisce together. But after that I got emails and texts from all sorts of people, which is cool. Obviously people actually listen to my crazy sailor stories.

When I was on board we sailed from Jacksonville, FL up to Long Island. When we went by Cape Hatteras on the way into Beaufort, North Carolina it was calm, which is very unusual. Cape Hatteras is known as the Graveyard of the Atlantic for good reason. Cape Hatteras is bordered by a series of (I think) three sets of shoals, which is why it's so dangerous. The Frying Pan Shoals are the best named of the lot. I remember getting off watch at 4 in the morning as we were passing and Matt, our first mate, making a terrible joke about the Frying Pan Shoals. Actually he didn't get the chance to make the joke, he just started it and then we all groaned and left to go to bed.

I'll probably write a little more about the Bounty later and my sailing experiences, but for now I think that's what I've got.

Robin, I hope you're okay, but what the fuck were you thinking trying to go around Cape Hatteras (of all places) in a Hurricane?


Oct. 22nd, 2012 04:01 pm
aderam: (Daniel Headdesk)
Somehow I managed to sleep in until about noon today despite waking up enough to turn off my alarm at 08:30. (No, I don't have to get up at any specific time these days - unemployed - but I've been trying to have reasonable awake hours instead of sleeping all day and not being able to get to sleep at night.)

Then I made myself a to do list and I actually managed to do most of the things on it!

Including calling a recruiting agency that places people in office jobs! Admittedly I had to leave a message on the person's voice mail, which is hopefully not as awkward as I fear. But I actually called them! I hate phones! This is an accomplishment!

I also tried to edit my CV to make all of the officey-type things I've done more obvious. None of my jobs have been office jobs, strictly speaking. But I've done a lot of data entry and forms and shit as well as filing, emailing people, and I'm not sure what taking notes in class is if not dictation. Also when I worked front desk I was responsible for all incoming calls to the university after the receptionist went home (there is no need to mention that the university was only 1000 students - or that I didn't get more than one or two desk shifts a week).

I also went grocery shopping (it never ends). And picked up some bus tickets. Did the dishes and I just started my laundry.

Tonight I'm going to see Seven Psychopaths with A and K and that should be fun. I'm going to try to not get any over-priced concessions.

My puck bruise is looking pretty damn impressive. It's sort of yellowy-greeny red in the middle and purpley-dark blue around the edges and I'm pretty sure it's actually bigger than a puck at this point which is pretty cool. Doesn't hurt as much as it used to either - which is good.

Now I think I'm going to read some fic to make me feel better.

And good news! I thought my kindle had died yesterday because it wouldn't respond to anything, including trying to restart it. But it turned out that it just needed to sit and think about what it'd done for a while. Because I restarted it today and it seems fine now. It even remembers where I was in my various ebooks (aka downloaded fic).
aderam: (Classics Books)
From my Rome class notes while discussing the Column of Marcus Aurelius (which is after Trajan's and pretty damn similar except for the fact that nobody cares about the Column of MA because T did it first - and, incidentally, better):

• two later columns in the same type and category from Istanbul - one of Theodosius and the other of Arcadius- to show that Constantinople had just as big a column - as it were

I'm glad I write these things in my notes. It makes it less boring to study. (Penis!)

Comp re-write is tomorrow.


My brain is filled with weird numbers and bits of information and buzz-words for the concepts in Art History that I don't really get and probably never will.

I feel like the penguin on top of your television set. (ie about to explode.)

Did you know that there was a timber amphitheatre in Silchester, England before they built the Colosseum in Rome?


Wish me luck.
aderam: (Aeryn)
Through various discussions about TV with my roommate I've been convincing her that she needs to watch Farscape. It didn't take much persuasion really, but she's only watching things that don't require any concentration while she's finishing up her thesis etc. So I've been just thinking about how great Farscape is without being able to share her new joy with the show.

So instead I've been re-watching it myself. I started while I was organizing my shit at my mother's place because she's got a set of the DVDs (my Mum is awesome) so I was half-watching episodes while I was packing everything (I've seen enough of Farscape before that I don't need that much concentration to watch it. And now that I'm home it's great for watching while I'm doing the wedding socks knitting.

How the Frell is this show so good? Some slightly incoherent thoughts:

- Whenever I watch it I weep for how good the female characters are. I mean everyone talks about Aeryn (and rightly so - because Aeryn is amazing), but Zhaan! And Chiana! And even Jool. All of them are complex, interesting, (sometimes annoying) fully fledged characters. And unlike most shows it's clear that they were not solely created to fill the "minority" quota, or brought in to be the other half of a relationship.

- I actually LOVE Crichton and Aeryn's relationship. This so rarely happens for me with canon relationships. I think it has to do with the above point. Crichton and Aeryn are Fully Themselves. Both of them exist fully outside of their relationship. Their relationship is wonderful and very satisfying because it's not the main point of either of their storylines or their lives. And it's beautiful.

- People come and go from Moya all the time - and it rarely coincides with the beginning and ending of a season. Which means that all of the many times when people almost (or actually) die mean something. There's always that danger - maybe they will actually die this time and they won't come back!

- Also I can totally believe how Crichton ended up being so embroiled in interstellar politics, even though he's just a random human no one's ever heard of.

- And I love the names of the episodes - especially the two- and three-parters which have a title for the whole set and then each episode has it's own. Example: from season 2 "Liars, Guns and Money Part I: A Not So Simple Plan", "Part II: With Friends Like These...", "Part III: Plan B". I'm also fond of the puns - "Home on the Remains" - and the pop culture references (which only Crichton would get) - "A Clockwork Nebari".

- And because I just watched it: Spoilers for season 3 Infinite Possibilities Part I: Daedalus Demands and Part II: Icarus Abides )

It's sad and it's wonderful. And I love it, even though mostly I prefer escapist happy shows, because it has all the feelings and makes me have all the feelings in such a good way that feels so real.

God I love this show.
aderam: (Elizabeth Grin)
YAY!!!!!!!! And I actually feel pretty good about this one! UNEXPECTED RESULT IS UNEXPECTED!!!!

And that's it! That's everything done for my degree!

(provided I passed both of these - which is still a ?)

I am getting super drunk tonight!

A List

Apr. 19th, 2012 02:59 pm
aderam: (Aeryn)
Things that Are Good:
- I have finished my Roman Comp
- My Greek Comp is tomorrow so soon the stress will be over
- THE CANUCKS WON LAST NIGHT! (no sweep for you Kings!)
- Daniel Sedin is back from his concussion! (Never leave DANIEL!!!!)
- Twin powers activated last night!
- Tim Horton's
- Hockey hugs.
- This:

It gave me chills. (Although the beginning is kinda weird.)
- Plans for drunkenness tomorrow night. (G told me to drink 4-7 more beers than was appropriate. I try to listen to her as often as I can. *grin*)
- Eddie Lack, Swedish goaltender for the Canucks' farm team, makes Swedish Meatballs while wearing a t-shirt jersey for one of his teammates, an apron with the team logo on it, and an enormous chef's hat. (cue Swedish Chef jokes. Also the toothpick Swedish Flag is clearly the most important part!) *Swedish Bias* *Defensive Bias*
- Cat!Canucks in the Cup (by azirae)
It's a good thing that I can identify all but one of them right? - ADORABLE!

Things that Are Not So Good:
- My Greek Comp is tomorrow. I hates it.
- While I know that I did well on my Roman Comp, I need to get a B+ to pass. I'm confident that I got at least a B, but that might not be good enough. :s - normally I'm pretty chill post exams, because I know what doing fine feels like, but the bar is different for these ones, so my insides are churning.
- There are simultaneously not enough and too many things on the internet for procrastination.
- Canucks must do that another three times if we're going to continue our season.


Apr. 17th, 2012 07:47 am
aderam: (300)
My Roman Archaeology Comps are today.

Wish me Luck.

(Yes that's a Greek Hoplite in my icon. Honey Badger don't care!)
aderam: (I Hate Everything)

Didn't I mention that hockey was my stress relief during this hard time in my academic career? Have I treated you poorly?

On a personal level the Kings are currently up 3-0 in their series with my beloved Canucks (only 4 teams have ever come back from a 3-game deficit to win a seven game series *sobs*). And it's not even that we've been playing particularly poorly (unlike the Penguins). Yes there were mistakes and some bad plays - but that is normal. What isn't normal is that after a whole season where the Kings only won games by virtue of Jonathan Quick being a truly spectacular goaltender, they've figured out how to score. :(

(And when I say "spectacular" and "the Kings don't score" I mean it. I think they have the highest number of 1-0 and 2-1 games in the league. And also there was at least one, maybe two, games where they lost even though Quick had a shutout. How does that happen you say? Shoot out goals don't count against the goaltender's shutout. That's right. Even when their goaltender was a brick wall the Kings couldn't score in the regular season. This has changed. *sobs*)

Honestly the Kings have been a good team all season, and if they'd actually been able to score there is no way they would've been 8th seed, and we wouldn't have played them in the first round.

I'm currently longing for the alternate reality where we played the sharks in the first. We can beat them. (of course I was sure we could beat the Kings too. *sobs*)

But to add insult to injury the whole playoffs seem to be going to hell in a handbasket. Most of the teams haven't played game three yet and I've already seen at least five headshots. No wait, six. Which is something that the league has been fighting to get out of the game all season (and before, but this year it was a campaign). Some of these I'm sure will result in suspensions, some of them already have. But for some reason when Shea Weber (Nashville) grabbed Henrik Zetterberg's (Detroit) head in both hands and shoved it into the glass after the game had ended and after Nashville had won he only got a $2500 fine. Admittedly this is the largest fine they can give without handing out a suspension - but holy fuck batman? What do you need to do to get suspensions these days?

It makes me want to throw up a little. I mean, I still love hockey. But that's not hockey. There's playing close to the edge (which is fun to watch because it's physical and good), and then there's that.

Also I watched the Flyers-Pens game yesterday. Everyone was expecting this series to be a bloodbath because the two teams hate each other. But I don't think anyone was expecting it to go like this. There were 113 penalty minutes in the game. That's almost two full games worth of penalties. 78 of them came in the first period alone. Both Clouturier and Giroux (who each scored 3 goals in Game 2 - that's right their were TWO hattricks in game 2) were the recipients of elbows to the head. Clouturier had to leave the game (I have no idea if he's alright). Claude Giroux (lead scorer of the Flyers) got into a fight with Sidney Crosby (whom you might have heard of)! And to top it all off the scores were ridiculous. The Flyers are now up 3-0 in the series. Game 1 was 4-3, game 2 was 8-5, and game 3 was 8-4. The total number of goals in game 2 alone is the same number of goals that have been scored in the entire Canucks-Kings series. Both the defence and the goaltending on both sides of the ice have been super crap.

This is not hockey - it's organized chaos on ice.

So what the fuck?

The only light of goodness so far was that the Canadian Women managed to eke out an overtime win at the worlds to get the Gold Medal! Beating an American team that wolloped us 9-2 in the round robin. So let's focus on that.



These are from the Olympics, but I don't CARE!

And here's some perspective from Flyers Goaltender Ilya Bryzgalov:

"The Universe is so huMANgous big! ... just be happy. Don't worry be happy."

Bryz: Never Change. You are not the best goaltender, but you are probably the most interesting one.
aderam: (Canadian Rink)
So Comps are fast approaching and I am alternately in denial and filled with fear and a certainty of failure.

The worst is that I'm not really sure what's going to be on them. And nothing I do will ever be enough. There are always going to be more things that I could read and study. And I won't know if I've done enough until I sit the exams and then hear about whether or not I pass.

Shit guys. I just want to pass. I don't care about whether my answers are excellent or not. Just pass me. Let the time and money I've spent on my education get me a Masters Degree. I promise I won't go on to a PhD and embarrass you (because I'm not going on to a PhD).

In response I've been obsessing over hockey. The Playoffs start tomorrow and the Canucks are playing the LA Kings. It should be a good, extremely defensive series. It's totally balls that the first round is starting the week before Comps. I'm going to watch all the Canucks games (natch), but there were a few other series' that I wanted to watch as well. The Flyers-Penguins series should be epic because of the hate they have for each other. And I really wanted to watch the Senators-Rangers, because I love the Sens and I've got a growing fondness for the Rangers (because Henrik Lundqvist is a god among men).

I was going to make an organized post about all of the reasons why I love the Canucks, but instead here are a few things that have been making me happy recently. Because EVERYTHING IS HOCKEY AND NOTHING HURTS.

The other Canucks players sabotaging an interview with Jannik Hansen. Oh Boys!

Henrik Lundqvist gives out bottles of wine to his teammates after getting shutouts. The Camera guy here is Marty Biron, his backup goalie.

Hugs are the best.

Even when you're on the opposite team, and people are fighting, what really matters is friendship. :D - This is from an old Sens-Sabres game. But I only recently found it and it is awesome. :D

Roberto Luongo supports his defence - in this case Keith Ballard, and literally.

Henrik Sedin: secret punk. Why you gotta harass Edler like that?

Higgy is adorable for more than just his abs.


Feb. 27th, 2012 08:31 am
aderam: (Bones Eyebrow)
Today is my very last presentation of all of Grad School.

I think I'm even fairly well prepared for it.

Wish me luck!

In other news statistics haven't failed me yet: I got my sixth Roll Up the Rim to Win coffee from Timmy's this morning - and I've won a coffee! I'm now 1 and 5 which is exactly the same as the promised 1 in 6 chances to win.

I feel this is an auspicious omen for the day.
aderam: (I Hate Everything)

I have so much work to do. And no motivation to do any of it.

I'm super tired - which I think is a combo of stress, and February (which is winter and therefore when I start hibernating), and stress.

I only have a few more months. I really don't want to be doing this.

I also really don't want to have wasted two years and thousands of dollars and not actually get my degree out of it.

In the end I'm still glad I did Grad School, because otherwise I would be stuck wondering if I would have liked it - but fuck I just want to get out of here.

I'm sick of the Bureaucracy.
I'm sick of the egos and the jerks.
I'm sick of writing papers and inter-library loan books that don't arrive until the day of your presentation.
And I think I might be getting sick.

Fuck I have a crap-ton of work to do today.

I can't wait for Reading Week. - I'll be heading to Edmonton to visit [personal profile] hobbitbabe, and I plan on doing very little (there's a warning for you, L).
aderam: (Henry and Big Guy)
I managed to get to campus by 10 am on a Sunday.

That's enough of an accomplishment for today right?

# reasons why this paper isn't finished yet.
aderam: (Bones Eyebrow)
(Even though THAT DAMN PAPER is not yet done.)

- Laundry: washed, dried and folded
- Sent the last of the Christmas packages (everything else will be brought with me)
- Not quite 700 words of boring boringness (although I am going to try and write some more this evening)
- Figured out how to buy a single Canucks game streaming live on the internet.
- Remembered - after purchasing the next game that the Canucks vs Senators game (which is on right now) which I meant to buy is actually on CBC so it's A) not available on the fancy streaming (which actually would have been nice since the CBC stream isn't very high quality), and B) is Free streaming live on CBC.
- *headdesk*
- Inadvertently bought the streaming of the Canucks-Blue Jackets Game on Tuesday. (So I guess I'm watching that game.)
- Minesweeper. So much Minesweeper.

Plan for tomorrow:
- finish the first draft of THAT DAMN PAPER. (It's only 1 business day later than my original plan.) I'm already about half-way done in terms of wordcount and probably about a third through in terms of content, so it's more than doable.


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