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Weird Thought
So I was re-reading Dark Moon, High Tide (or PegBa'al as we've come to know and love it) by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tafkarfanfic And this one thing struck me as very true and scary because I feel it all the time. It's actually from the first chapter which was written by troyswann (gotta love Peg B), but I think it really characterizes Daniel throughout the story.
Daniel wondered what it would be like to die as John had. It was the same curiosity that made him hesitant to stand on the edge of a cliff, or against the railing of a balcony, or on the lip of a subway platform when the train was coming. He wasn't suicidal, but if he wasn't careful he knew his inquisitiveness would override his self-preservation instinct, and he'd step off the edge just so he could know what it was like.
I'm always curious about how these things would feel, and it kinda scares me when I stop to think about it. Perhaps that's why I like being a goalie so much and intense sailing. It's living hard and feeling the effects of life, without being too ... Dead. My rationality is always saving me from my morbid curiosity, and intellectually I know, but every now and again I still wonder...
tafkarfanfic And this one thing struck me as very true and scary because I feel it all the time. It's actually from the first chapter which was written by troyswann (gotta love Peg B), but I think it really characterizes Daniel throughout the story.Daniel wondered what it would be like to die as John had. It was the same curiosity that made him hesitant to stand on the edge of a cliff, or against the railing of a balcony, or on the lip of a subway platform when the train was coming. He wasn't suicidal, but if he wasn't careful he knew his inquisitiveness would override his self-preservation instinct, and he'd step off the edge just so he could know what it was like.
I'm always curious about how these things would feel, and it kinda scares me when I stop to think about it. Perhaps that's why I like being a goalie so much and intense sailing. It's living hard and feeling the effects of life, without being too ... Dead. My rationality is always saving me from my morbid curiosity, and intellectually I know, but every now and again I still wonder...